Rethinking Journal Time

Wednesday, June 30, 1999

I really feel like these latest entries are little more than an itemization of what I did during the day, or the day previous; I miss my more thoughtful entries, and I think I know part of the cause: I've been doing my writing lately around 11 or so in the morning, when I tend to be less introspective about writing.

I'd like to start writing in the evenings again, but I'm not quite sure how to manage that. In the mornings, Jev heads off to work, and I don't see him for about 10 hours of my day, so that gives me plenty of time to goof off and do my thing, and eventually get around to writing an entry (today it's at 5:50 in the afternoon, and he'll probably be coming through the front door any minute now). But in the evenings, our time together is limited to how long we stay up, and there's seldom much structure to it, except dinner, which is as soon as Jev gets home. After that, it might be just watching TV and goofing off on the computer, or going out to get groceries, or just for the sake of getting out. I never know from day to day, and while I like to have some quiet time to myself when I write, I'm not sure I want to trade it for time with Jev.

I could just stay up a little longer after Jev goes to bed, but then I'd lose time we usually spend cuddling up together before sleep, because he falls asleep fairly quickly. And sometimes, when I sit down to write, it can be hours before I finally wrap things up, or run out of things I want to write about. Granted, that doesn't happen very often, but when it does, it is usually at the most inopportune times.

I suppose I could wait until Jev is asleep, and then get up and write an entry, but I'm not sure how well that would work; I know there would be times when I would be too tired to write an entry, and just skip it for the day... and I have the feeling that might happen fairly often, when things get busy around here. But, for now, it might just be the best solution to this problem. Otherwise, I don't really see much point in keeping my journal online; I really live a humdrum sort of life, and I doubt anyone would be much interested in it, except for a few occasional highlights.

Tonight, we're going out to dinner and a movie (Taco Bell and Wild Wild West), so I'll probably be too tired to do any more writing before I go to sleep, but I'll try tomorrow night and see what happens. f